Hey guys, these past two weeks has been hectic but great! Let me explain why… I’ve been working on cleaning up my diet, my OCD has kicked in, so the house has been completely clean, I’m back on my regular schedule at the gym, 6 days a week and I’m all set for next semester with classes.
Talk about some craziness. I have a slight version of OCD and when I get into that zone it doesn’t stop, it will go until my body is exhausted and can’t take the stress. If any of y’all have OCD you can understand what I mean. It comes in waves, mostly when I need to keep my mind off things happening in life. We all deal with situations in different ways.
It feels almost as if I can conquer the world when I get into the zone! The house stays insanely clean, i’m in the gym right when I need to be, killing the workouts I think up in my head, I am able to keep up with classes and homework and get ahead. It keeps me focused on my goals, helps me to be on top of my to do list and helps me to keep my mind off unnecessary thoughts.
Another super positive part of where i’m at right now is that i’m starting to realize more of my goals and dreams. I’m starting to put into action the message of Wolfness. I’m preparing ideas and creating content that shares my message. I am so excited!!! I would like for women to see how the world has effected us, with each other and how we can change it one step at a time. We all have naturally beautiful hearts that can be covered up by the masses of hurt we all endure throughout life. We have the ability to change that.
These are all very positive outcomes and what life should be like every day. But let’s be honest, sometimes it doesn’t stay that way, other things in life get in the way of that focus. We get thrown a lot of curve balls that can cause ruckus in our lives, we just have to learn how to avoid getting knocked down.
My OCD also has a negative side to it though. As much as it helps me to finish projects and keep focused there are a few things that I should mention. This condition is a great avoidance mechanism. I mention how I am able to keep my mind off of unwanted thoughts, well that is me avoiding certain things I need to deal with. It inhibits me from fully coming to terms with uncontrollable situations. It’s great for keeping my mood stable, however, I also have a fear with loss of control. And sometimes when I let myself think through situations I feel like I am out of control. This is something I have to work on, and I have been through prayer. However, the OCD comes into play when I feel as if I am completely out of control. So it saves me, yet also disables my ability to deal with situations.
There wasn’t really a “point” to this blog. I just wanted y’all to see that my life gets crazy and we sometimes can’t control every factor. With the zone i’ve been in, I have accomplished much and I am thankful. Whatever you deal with in life, there is always a positive side to the curve balls life can throw your way.